Well it’s a gloomy day here in the great big city of San Antonio. It’s been raining all day, and I hate nights like this. However, I do find the sound of the rain tapping on my window very relaxing. I know many people enjoy the rain, especially when you’re from a city where drought are very real. I know I have friends who enjoy dancing and running in the rain, a very common memory couples love to make is kissing in the rain. I remember there was point in time where I found the rain very fascinating. I loved it, I remember my mom would always get after me when I got home from school because I would come home drenched. “Why are you all wet? You’re going to get sick.”. Apparently “I was jumping in puddles” was not the answer she wanted to hear. But over the course of years it was like every time I would receive bad news it was raining. Kind of cliché, don’t you think? You know how you watch those movies and it’s storming outside and someone knocks on your door and tells you your husband’s car went off-road and was found at the bottom of a lake. Well I very much would fit into that cliché, the bad news cliché. I mean now that I think about it, every bit of bad news I have received for the past several years it was raining. When I was 14 and was told my grandfather had passed away, it was raining. When I was told my cousin who I had mentioned this past time had passed away, it was raining. When I was told my dog Minnie had passed away, it was raining. (I have now build a correlation with death and the rain). Actually earlier this year my boyfriends best friend passed away. He was involved in a car accident, was ran off the road. Although I wouldn’t say that it was raining heavy it certainly was that heavy mist. The mist that makes the roads extra sleek, in my own opinion that is what I think made him lose control of the car. When they told us, my boyfriend and I were sitting in the hospital, we had gotten very sick. I would never forget that night. My boyfriend had received a phone call from his friend’s sister. I had never seen him so torn, I had never seen him cry that much. It broke me, it really did hurt. I was sad to hear about the death as well. I loved him too. But when I had seen my boyfriend break down that way, it was a new pain for me. Something I can’t describe. It still hurts him and when I see him cry about it, it still hurts me. His friend’s birthday would have been tomorrow, and here it is raining again. I guess every time it rains I’m praying that it’s not me who is receiving bad news that night and I pray that whoever is receiving that bad news finds the strength to carry on. In my eyes I think rain is cause by the angels crying. They feel your pain and they cry with you.
When I feel gloomy like this I think long and hard; there is always one memory that gets me through the rainy night. Ok guys, ready for this one? Don’t laugh at me. But I remember very clearly when I was a child, I had to have been 6 or 7 and there was a horrible thunderstorm going on. My cousin Crystal were busy building a tent to hide us from the “oh so scary thunder”. Suddenly the power goes out. We screamed and began crying (little girls are such drama queens). Two minutes later, my father walked in and turned the light back on. At that moment my cousin and I had convinced ourselves that my father had some kind of magic powers. I don’t know why we panicked so much, it was like we had thought we were going to be stuck in the darkness forever. 😀 We were so goofy, but every time I start feeling anxious about the rain I remind myself: The rain and darkness will never last forever, the sun will always come back and shine for you.
To all my San Antonio friends and family be safe out there. To all of those from parts of the world where it is raining I hope you are safe and warm as well. Tonight the angels are crying, I pray everyone is doing alright. I love y’all. (To my followers not from Texas, yes I said y’all, you can stop laughing now.)
I could have sworn I had a cup of hot chocolate right here next to me, I was almost positive I hadn’t finished it yet… Two year old now has a chocolate moustache. -,-